this one’s a two-parter. it’s a long one.
part 1:
thanks to everybody who decided to start checking this blog after i emailed you all in a desperate attempt for recognition. particularly to those of u who left comments. they make my day
amazingly enough somebody actually started reading thru the archives back into february (where i still had ideas that were worth recording) and left this comment.
you know, i really fucking hate blogs. and, you know what else? i really really fucking hate blogs that aren’t really blogs at all, but just a cut and paste of some lame assed conversation.
ps–i hear zane miller is a faggot
Written by: pez spencer at 2005/03/30 - 23:54
i damn near laughed my head off when I read that one too. i have my theories about who could have left it, one being my little brother (who’s pic u can see here) and the other being romas, who has regularly referred to me as “poop dick” during our normal correspondence. whoever it was though, part 2 is for them.
oh yeah, and one of my gay friends inquired about the “insert gay pride joke here” caption for the population charts. it’s a reference to the rainbow colors. duh.
so, on to part 2
part 2:
this being the part that’s completely different. sorta. at least, it’s not funny. not really.
the preface to this conversation is that a guy many of knew from NAU engineering was killed this week by a drunk driver. u can read about him here. amanda was pretty broken up by this. In fact she blogged twice about it, talking about how 4 ppl in her high school were killed by drunk drivers. i highly recommend u check it out. at any rate right before this dialog starts, i had made a comment that the college of engineering at northern arizona university (CET NAU) was a dangerous place to be a student. including powell, i now know three people from there that died tragically prematurely. and she said
Nemec, Amanda M says:
THREE?!
Miller, Zane B says:
aye
Miller, Zane B says:
powell
Nemec, Amanda M says:
anyone i know?
Miller, Zane B says:
the policeman whose name i am ashamedly forgetting at the moment
Miller, Zane B says:
and the football player who died skydiving
Miller, Zane B says:
he and i did the ASME design challenge together
Miller, Zane B says:
there’s a plaque for him in the CET building
Nemec, Amanda M says:
oh jeff, of course
Nemec, Amanda M says:
jeff moritz
Miller, Zane B says:
thx
Nemec, Amanda M says:
so, so sad
Miller, Zane B says:
i prefer to think of it in thrill movie terms
Miller, Zane B says:
WHO WILL BE NEXT??
Miller, Zane B says:
ok, that was crass
Nemec, Amanda M says:
a little…
Miller, Zane B says:
trying to bring humor to the situation
Miller, Zane B says:
sorry
Nemec, Amanda M says:
i know…
Nemec, Amanda M says:
i hope they put that guy away
Nemec, Amanda M says:
no excuse for drunk driving
Miller, Zane B says:
personally i think all drunk drivers involved in a fatality should be shot
Nemec, Amanda M says:
totally
Miller, Zane B says:
this guy i knew from high school killed somebody drunk driving a few years after he graduated. went to jail for 5 or 6 years i think
Miller, Zane B says:
after he got out, he went off into the estrellas and killed himself
Nemec, Amanda M says:
and that other guy’s dead forever
Nemec, Amanda M says:
oh man…
Nemec, Amanda M says:
i don’t blame him
Nemec, Amanda M says:
i’d feel exactly the same way
Miller, Zane B says:
at first i was totally unsympathetic
Miller, Zane B says:
serves him right, etc
Nemec, Amanda M says:
it’d be hard not to feel that way
Nemec, Amanda M says:
but you can also see how kids are young and dumb and he knows now what his actions caused
Miller, Zane B says:
but in retrospect, the fact that he felt so bad about it that he killed himself struck me as an indication that he was punishing himself enough
Miller, Zane B says:
obviously he was torn up about it and was willing to take responsibility for his actions
Nemec, Amanda M says:
yeah, but he’s like one of the 10% who’d get that
Miller, Zane B says:
his death served nothing
Miller, Zane B says:
that’s the type of person u want to live. working to redeem himself by helping others.
Miller, Zane B says:
of course, i could be giving him too much credit. maybe he was raped in prison and couldn’t live with the shame
Nemec, Amanda M says:
i think you are absolutely right
Nemec, Amanda M says:
i doubt it, i bet he really just was torn up about it
Nemec, Amanda M says:
but killing himself seems like the easy way out
Miller, Zane B says:
maybe
Miller, Zane B says:
i mean, it’s not like he did it in while he was in prison
Miller, Zane B says:
he served his time, did the penance the state said he owed society and was free
Nemec, Amanda M says:
yeah, but like you said, if he really wanted to repent he would have devoted himself to making a difference
so, actually, i understated my opinion to her. in reality, i think that ANYBODY that drinks and drives should be shot and their corpse gruesomely mutilated and impaled on pikes that line the freeway to serve as a reminder. for some reason, this is really the only crime that i take this seriously. momentary lapse in judgement my ass! driving intoxicated has to be premeditated. u know ahead of time u’re gonna be drunk when u start drinking. that’s when u make the choice. the thing that makes it a crime worse than 1st degree murder is that at least with murder, u know the person u’re gonna kill and in your mind, they deserve it. when some fool heads out on the road three sheets to the wind, he is implicitly saying he doesn’t give a fuck who dies. And of course, it’s never the asshole with the BAC of .5% that leaves the scene of the accident in a body bag. Maybe if the fine for drunk driving was curbside execution after the breathalyzer, people might think about forking over the keys BEFORE they start drinking. that would make my day
now i’m gonna contradict myself. normally i’m pretty amused by those hardcore law and order types that advocate the death sentence for murder as “a deterrent.” that’s total bullshit. if society wants to use the corporate punishment as a form of PUNISHMENT, fine. but don’t try and sell me on the deterrent benefits of stiff penalties for anything. a person that decides to commit a crime justifies it to themselves based on their own personal morality and any concept of worldly punishment is secondary in that equation. particularly when revenge is the operative emotion. if somebody killed my little brother or raped my girlfriend, they would die a prolonged and agonizing death at my hand. Probably over the course of several months and involving the progressive loss of body parts which they would then be force to
well, let’s not get too graphic here. the prospect of spending life in lockdown afterwards, assuming i was even caught, wouldn’t stop me at the time from pulling a trigger. The only thing that would stop me from doing any of that is my own belief system that says killing under any circumstance is wrong. i would have to justify it to myself, not the state. and in a crime of passion, who would even stop to think about jail. and then there’s money
nah, this is getting to long as it is and i’ve already revealed WAY too much of my disturbed psyche.
jeff moritz was a flagstaff city policeman who was studying to be an engineer on the side. he was killed by a kid at a routine traffic stop when was shot in the head with a .22.
and of course i don’t really think drunk drivers should be executed. but they should definitely be beaten within an inch of their life.
i’m reasonably certain that this post may one day be used against me in a murder trial
